goodbye my braces , welcome back little monster

little monster officially release from braces la...hahhaa...now i can do want i want already....hmm....little monster had been starving for 2 years and now wanna start to bite human being ....so watch out ,my beloved one (mokkies)...hahaha...

我很想哭，最近的我已近不是我了。我的压力真的大到不行了。我真的真的很想自己一个人翘家，订机票去一个没有人认识我的一个小岛在那里痛快地玩上几天。真的不想被人打扰，不想跟任何人说话。只是想在那里抒发我的压力，痛快地哭。 我已经对书厌倦了，也不想去了解它的方程式。读书不是我的专长了。我已经不会读了，很累了，想给自己一个大放假。

压力还真的来自家人的爱，梦想不够伟大还真的不把你的小梦想当一回事。身为大孙女的责任比小的还来得大。要身为他们的榜样，照顾他们，还要教导他们。在这个大家庭只有我这个大孙女很会读书，鉴定考试拿的A's比他们多很多。所以妈妈，阿姨还有舅舅们给我的期望也特别地多。妈说，作女儿的是要为爸妈完成他们的梦想，他们已经给你最好的了，你当然也要怎样的报答。我们所为你设定的都是最好的，不要你走那么多冤枉路。舅，你帮我读这个，然后读那个，然后给你做股东。这些我全部听起来都很好听。可是这些的一切都是我一个人在做，没人帮我。我已经习惯一个人坚强，从小到大都是一个人撑着大人们的梦想，我好怕让他们失望，而且从来也不让他们对我失望。千万个宠爱都集聚在我这，我怎么会没有压力。没有一个肩膀能让我哭，让我撒娇。自己独自承担眼泪。

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突然想起以前有个grandpa，他是老外，很疼我。每当想起他就会浑身颤抖地后悔着。因为当他病倒躺着的时候，我拒绝地见他最后一面。他说过他爱我多于自己的儿子。我一辈子都背负这个刺。我已经辜负了一个疼爱我的grandpa.

'grandpa,now i can use english to talk with you,but you not in this world.i have so much story to talk to you , but you already in GREAT HOLY FATHER'S arm.I'm so sorry that i didn't work enough hard to live up your expectation on me.sorry that i have to let you down again.i sure that i didn't make you pround not even one.if one day i will see you in heaven,i hope that i can hear 'baby,i still love you and happy to see you' from you and please don't abandon me.i miss you grandpa.
from ling ling

final 5 days

count down the final 5 days for my teeth braces..yeah !going to smile free without any braces ....to whom that won't see me for this few days ,u can see my last face with braces..hehe...

sardine

my cooking skill have some improvement d...hahaha....just now cooked sardine with ong's sambal(the recipi that pass down from 1 generation to another generation) , but of cause my skill can't compare with my grandmother who is so expert in spicy...actually all my aunt use thier dish to ikat their husband's stomach,so that they won't simply go out curi makan.....i also hope that i can learn up the skill before i get marriage ,so that they won't go out curi makan...haha...no bad right...haha...

ying~next time when u r home alone call me wo....i go to ur house cook for u ,ok?hehe....

BEH SONG

feeling 'beh song' today....'beh song' to all that happen in my surrounding today...not doing well in the economic test, traffic jam near my school, no foods for lunch, the Hotlink Top-Up system jam and then wait at there for 20 minutes, other car trying to kiss my car in the traffic jam....
walau~~~wat's going wrong today? why all those unfortunate things happen sekali gus on me de?

シかさんのうち

yesterday celebrated single party at 'ultraman's house(シか）...we had a great day in his house...but yesterday just 7 ppl join this party only,got sumin,vivien,sharon,nelson,kegan,sherina and me...
he design his house exactly like japanese house,is very relax since u enter from his house's door and don't feel like wanna go out again...really nice..i feel like wanna overnight in his house for a month if i can...hehe...
we chated a lot about musics ,opera and bands..he also showed us the DVD record how he conduct Kun chen's private girl school's band...he really strict when he facing his students and we feel very lucky that we r his friend cos he treat friends very generous and polite...
we also opened some topics about sex ,education,prospect and health topics...and learn a lot from their past experience...and now only i know that actually condom got difference into many sizes..big is AA.........and.............. forgotten what nelson-san said d.......hehe...how doctor want to check when u r suspected in cervic canser or breast canser...
sumin-san photogaphy had reached professional standard lo.....here we had some picture about our P-19 5th outing...

dianasor collections





祭＝matsuri

hawaii

women in the room

band teacher and me (this picture is so valueable)haha...

look at nelson's eyes

ULTRAMAN action !!

family picture

they said we look alike

ultraman and little monster

'king' ~'king'~'king'~

happy girls

look at the weirdo

big and comfortable living room

so 'bahagia' nia~hahha

wat is he trying to do there?

senior and me

wooo~~hahahah~~

Rokok，TAK NAK !

as grown up, i have a lot of smoking friends and i also see many things that i don't like and sure won't do it in the past i do it right now...alcohol, clubbing.....and the most thing i don't want to see that thing happen is..... see my friends smoking...they do know smoking is not good for health and yet still wanna have it...

maybe it very comman to those youth and adult smoking, some will say that's not a big deal wat..but for me it is...for this matter i cried in front of my friend when i first time saw him smoke while he just 13 years old...i really can't imagine it...i...i...have a smoking friend at such young age..

p/s: friends, i love you...can you love yourself too?pls,stop it..