a joke with hurts return

i didn't think that our friendship will be end up by one stupid letter..i love u as our senior,but i dun want this kind of return...is kinda hurts !! i'm here to apologize what had i done before..i really didn't mean tat, i'm just joking..

i don't have the courage apologize face to face ,so i apologize here..

I'M SORRY, SHERINA-SAN....

我是很喜欢你，可是不喜欢劈腿的你。

我可以做你最好的朋友，可是就是没有办法做出一些违背你女朋友的事。

我常常站在她的立场想想我们有时这么亲密会不会伤了她的心。

有一句话我想说，你的女朋友真的很美，我很喜欢她，所以不想伤害她的心。这是我第一次打从心底很喜欢朋友的女朋友。这绝对不是同性恋，而是欣赏她。

所以，我们做一辈子的朋友吧！！把那份爱换成我们对彼此的信任和忠臣。

喜欢你，

x x x x x

(从来没听过你叫我的名字）

homemade cheongsam..1st ever cheongsam tat i have...hehe

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long time didnt updated my blog d...i become more and more lazy..didnt concentrate in anything things tat i was doing..even stpm is around of the corner i also didnt care ...what i was doing now is keep on playing..maybe i will regret in someday how...but i still dun have the mood to study although many friends and families is stand for me ,support me from all the way...sorry,gonna make u all disappointed ...

MJ 的话

‘我已经厌倦了被人操纵的感觉。这种压迫的真实存在的！他们是撒谎者，历时书也是谎言满布。你必须知道，所有的流行音乐，从爵士到摇滚到HIP-HOP，然后到舞曲，都是黑人创造的！但这都被逼到了史书的角落去了。你从没见过一个黑人出现在它的封面，你只会看到猫王，滚石乐队，可谁才是真正的先驱呢！自从我打破猫王，披头四的唱片记录开始，他们叫我畸形人，同性恋者，性搔扰小孩的怪胎！他们说我漂白了自己的皮肤，做一切可以诋毁我的事，这些都是阴谋！当我站在镜前看着自己，我知道，我是个黑人！‘

’我没有创作什么舞蹈，那些都是自然而然的！‘

’我不是把歌迷当做一个整体来爱，我是一个一个地爱你们！‘

’我多想看着你们的眼睛说我爱你们啊，可是我真的会害羞。‘

我见过很多富有的人和很多贫困的人，但我更关心穷人，希望奉献出我的一切去帮助他们！’

‘你们喋喋不休地谈论我，侵犯我的隐私。你们的照相机并不能改变别人地想法，所以也休想改变我。你们甚至出卖自己的灵魂，仅仅为了能卖出一个编造的故事。’

I LOVE YOU

08-07-2009 1am in malaysia.

MJ funeral ceromony in Los Angeles had come to the end part. i'm here to say, is so reluctant to know that u had no longer be here in the world, but I LOVE YOU. i hope that when i call your name and u will be there just what you sang in the song ' I WILL BE THERE'.

greatest regard for me to u.

JESUS LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

MJ 'You are not alone'

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far
You always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'loneWhy, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

taekwando grading centre

long time didn't update my blog..it's looks dead when didn't inject new posts..hmm...recently i study like hell ,didn't have enough sleep and always play truancy...
but today i finally have a little time for me to relax...
i fetched sister to taekwan-do grading and took some picture of those little kids...they are awesome and cute..they managed to broke the thick plank...

24-hour moms and dads

plank that broke by kids

i think he just 5

oh ! no ! i do it wrongly ...dad! pls help me !!

the smallest

今天真是很忙的一天。早上九点，自己开车去教会。一点，从教会出来连午餐都没有时间用就匆匆忙忙去SUMMIT's POPULAR去买书。到了那里我真的有点感动得想哭出来，因为我从小到大的愿望实现了哟。那就是在书海里找自己喜欢的书，而且是要很便宜很便宜的。从昨天到现在我已经买超过十本以上的书，而且这还不到RM100。超开心的，我的书柜又有很多新书咯。哈！哈！

回家睡两个小时又在出门。是去找谁呢？我是去履行我之前答应过别人的事。咳。。

到了那里真的很后悔。眼看来的全都是年长的老人家。而我才十九岁呃！都还没有说我去那里呢。我，又是自己一个人开车去到PJEFC 教会。去见谁呢？。。。。。。。就是他

他是福音歌手。为什么会跟他有约定呢？那就是我自己好奇在FRIENDSTER留言给他说我会去，虽然今天有点不愿意去或是到了那里想要逃走，可是最后还是赴约去给他瞧瞧。可是到了最后没有后悔去。呵呵。。

*有点小插曲，那就是我跟Mr capricorn为了一个人闹起来了。冷战了。没回信息了。

随着年龄的成长，妈妈越把我的爱情对象看似更严了。妈常跟人说我一直都没有对象。对！没错我是真的没有交往的对象。可是我也有我喜欢的对象。就是因为喜欢，不想破坏我们之间那超友谊，所以没有告白。做妈妈的总是希望自己的宝贝女儿能够过好些，吃好些，穿好些。而且总是把女儿的未来放在有钱人的身上。这样的我真的很寂寞，自己一个人的爱情电影，一个人的午餐，自己一个人的公园还有自己一个人的自拍。



其实，她根本都不知道我在想什么。我！超想做‘女强人’！即时是很辛苦我也要我的家人能够住我所买的房子和车子。靠着自己的双手得来能够给你们，我会觉得很有成就感。如果要等到我的男人给你们这些，恐怕会让你们失望。



可是感谢主。最近，丹室爆的家丑已经让妈妈的观念改变了。她不再碎碎念我了，也不敢指望有钱的男人。只要能找到一个爱神友爱你的男人就可以了。她说，那些父母知道男的家庭背景是来自王室就把自己的宝贝女儿推进火坑。听她这么一说，我真的很开心。她终于想通了。



说真的。我的心里老早就有想好要怎样的一个男人了。当然咯！第一，爱神的男人。这样我们可以一起坚守神的信念，一起建立神所爱的家庭。



第二，爱我咯！



第三，工作！工作！工作！的男人

对我而言，认真工作的男人最帅！

我还真的很容易喜欢上一个工作狂，看到男人工作的样子真的很有魅力。帅！我喜欢！

tag from lili

1. Beside your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
neck

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
wanna eat kenny roger roaster

3. Who was the last person/people you took a picture with?
my classmate

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
ya...always let mom do rest for me

5. Will you donate blood?
i can't ,bacause my weight is below 45kg

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
loads

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
nope..

8. What does your last text message say?
ok..thanks for company me tonight...good night...(to Mr. capricorn)

9. What are you thinking right now?
what to do in the next morning...

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
yeah...the Mr.capricorn ...hehe..

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
around 1.30am...chatted with Mr.capricorn..

12. Where did you buy tee you are wearing right now?
B.U.M CITY, Melaka..

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
yes..is HIM..

14. Who was the last person who text you?
Mr.capricorn

happy birthday to little monster

is 28 may...yeah !! my birthday again..hehe..and the time is shown the time that i born 19 years ago...

get many birthday wishes from fren around the world...including taiwan and london...thanks guys..love u..muakss...

yesterday celebrate with my darlings -MOKKI-...but not all came...lili had move to sungai long and ciu ciu got class at night so they can't make it..but is ok...i still love u guys..hehe

blood stick on tyre

yesterday i realise tat the true dead man hand's blood was stick on my tyre...

here is the picture tat i just took....

the redish blood......yer.....

enjoy...see before u eat anything..

a dead man hand

today 6.55 in the morning i drive my kancil to school....30 metre away from my house i saw a hand on the road..tat time i tot who is the stupid fellow throw a toy hand on the road to scare the people who crash over..and i really crashed over it....

5.30 pm, my mom come back from work and tell us this hottest news .. after she tell me i just realised tat i was crashed it in this afternoon...OH MY GOD !! i cried...and i just woke from 'afternoonmare'...

i dreamed a guy was lock in a shop and the door can not be open forever..and i saw a lot of human dead skin and hands was hang over the football field...

JESUS ,u gonna helped me to over come this ...


to whom tat stay near sentosa and manja pls alert !! dun simply go out at night... and me too...hope i can do it..

police record

yesterday went to police station with dad.before i go to police station i already make a report by myself in home....

here is the story begin.....

Pada 15/05/2009 jam 3 petang, semasa saya memandu lori bernombor BJY 8661 di HIGHWAY ELIT dari Shah Alam menghala ke Nilai pada kesembilan kilometer. Sebuah Proton Saga berwarna metelik memotong dari belakang lori saya dan pemandu Proton Saga menghon dan seorng wanita India melambai tangan.Selapas itu, pemandu itu menghentikan keretanya di tepi highway, begitu juga saya.

Seorang wanita India yang berumur antara 30-35 tahun dan lelaki India antara 35-38 tahun turun daripada keretanya dan menghampiri lori saya.Lelaki itu berbua kuat arak.Dia mencabut kunci lori dan mengatakan bahawa saya telah melanggar motornya semasa dia membawa isterinya yang mangandung, tetapi saya tidak pernah melanggar mereka.Dia mengugut saya dengan sebatang besi. Pada masa itu saya hanya ada tunai RM480.00 dan seterusnya dia mengugut saya membuka cek tunai bernilai RM3800.00,
cek yang bernombor ‘101089’ .

Selepas itu, saya nampak ada peluang untuk melepas diri dan saya cepat turun dari lori dan menahan sebuah lori untuk meminta bantuan. Saya melaporkan report polis atas kejadian demikian.




my dear friends, please beware of women also...now they have a lot of trick to trap you...please don't easily to believe them...may god bless you.....

USJ 8 police station is a new police station, i sneak out from inspector office and walked around the station and took some picture...

here is the picture of it...

wow....got tv !!

logo of POLICE DI-RAJA

park

is all about WHITE WATER RAFTING

24/04/2009
we had our briefing cum dinner at Robsson Height Restoran.

they busy discussing about the outing and i busy shoot photo

president and vice president

26/04/2009
starting our journey Kuala Kubu Bharu with my japanese classmate..total got 9 of us join in this very first outing together..me, SuMin, Nelson, Vincient, Cheong, Vivien, Sharon, Keagan and Sherina.. this WHITE WATER RAFTING cost RM180 +insurans RM15 per person..total i spent RM222 for the whole day (including 3 meal)..

what i learnt from this outdoor activitie is the wonderful phares from Nelson ->'WHAT A WONDERFUL xxxx' and 'OH YEAH/OH NO'..and learnt what is teamwork too! after tat day,we become more closer with each other,we share everything we had ,share drinks share foods..in this team youngest is 18 year old and the oldest is 40 year old..this is what call a friendship without any bonds althought our age range is very big..

today our pity keagan sick d, so he just sit there quietly and listened what we talking and joking about..cheong and me was the sexy 'dad and daughter' in the team, we wore short pants walked here and there while other wore long pants..

lets the picture tells the rest of my today's post.

this is our look after the water rafting,everyobe is getting darker and darker

after the white water rafting,we are heading to restoran for our dinner..suddently nelson's car broke down because of '水滚'..so 9 of us have to contribute our water for the BMW to drink..oh god, i just drank few drop then have to contribute to the car..but not a bad experience ...

the BMW broke down beside ULU YAM's basketball hall

the BWM is getting thirsty

after 30 minutes,the car is filled with full of water ,we heading to 'jin hok jiak' restoran to gao dim our hungry stomach..

and there is the end of the day..

遊戲規則:被點到名字的人要在自已的blog裡寫下答案。去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題，再加上一個新的，傳給其它8個人。列出其它8個被點名的人，到他們的blog裡留言通知。被點名者不得拒絕。被點名的人將會得到大家的祝福(認真)，並且所有願望都會實現。

01.你認為分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎?答：能,可是很希望对方主动

02.你最希望從朋友(不包括愛人)那裡得到的是什麼？答：他们的时间

03.最近最鬱悶的事？答：没人爱又没钱

04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？答：懒惰!!

05.遇到喜歡的人，你是勇敢表白還是默默關注？答：默默地等他表白，自己是不会主动的，如果他没有表态那就算了。

06.說出點你名的人的3個優點答：优点啊?痴情， 很聪明，好情人呱~~呵呵

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？答：自己很爱很爱的人，很难，暗恋人不超过3个月，如果有超过，那就表示我喜欢他了

08.喜欢现在的生活吗？答：超喜欢，每天都有不同的活动等着我去玩

09.如果要被關起來十五年，除了離開之外什麼都能做的話，要做什麼(複選，生涯規劃亦可)?答：去喜欢的地方工作赚钱，认识不同国家的人

10.什么人是你最欣賞的？答：工作狂又有上进心的人

11.你身边有讨人厌的人吗？为什么？答：有，每天勉强和他打招呼

12.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？答：金钱独立的女人，有一个非常爱我的男人和家人，一对宝贝。这样就很满足了

13.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？答：别搞我..我享受惯了

14.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？答：开心啦..啊不然叻..

15.喜欢听什么音乐？答：喜欢听我喜欢听的音乐..

16.年終要領多少才算OK？答：ok的话至少都要上千万...那只是ok程度罢了..

17.明天中午吃什麼?答：KFC

18.一個月多少錢才算OK?答：5000吧！我还要存钱的叻

19.最想到哪里举行婚礼？答：海滩，穿着短裤短裙走婚礼。呵呵

20.雖然很八股題了，但還是想問一下，愛人好還是被愛好？答：被人爱是最好

21.有什麼不可告人的怪癖？答：如果我有怪癖的话，我一定会让全世界知道

22.跟几个男/女亲过? 答：3 个，被强迫的也有

23.有没有变态倾向？答：有，朋友最知道!



八位幸运儿：Gyn, Lili, Chester, Gary, Ting Fang, Yuk Hoong, ZiWei, SuMin

骂你是为你好

‘我现在骂你是把钱塞在你的口袋 ！做人不要十下十下，这样会给人骗的！’
我们真应该感谢那曾经这样骂我们的，要不是他们你想想你现在是做什么的。你可能一世人都做着打工仔或只找到一份可以糊口的饭而已。为何不要做个更有出息更能赚多点的功呢？

‘真是十下十下，蠢，没出息！’

找到一份稳定的工作有什么不好？我的薪水一个月已经RM20000了，这样还不好吗？你不敢敢出来做，你是不会知道它是多么的好赚。‘打工一个月可以赚RM20000，可是我要一天就可以赚个十千八千，我一个月有30天，那么我一个月就不只有RM20000了。’

听这个老人那么一说真的有道理，有的是时间跟人工。自己不聪明就找人帮你做劳工，自己就做规划，这才是有脑的人赚快钱的方法。


p/s:希望有心人看了不要介意，无心的可以把它当作参考。祝你们成功！

wedding ring

2 days ago i dreamt someone present me a diamond ring but i don't know/can't see clearly who is that guy..arrggg.....what is this dream mean ? scare wei ! scare will lose my freedom or be tide by marriage..but if someone willing to give me without tiden me then i will to accept de..hahaha...as a present la...

do some googling about this dream just now,and i found out :

梦见戒指梦中的戒指一般代表着梦者与别人之间的关系，它并不一定就是爱情关系。

梦见金戒指代表着要发财；

梦见结婚戒指，象征着永恒和承诺；印章戒指或古老的祖传戒指，象征着古老的传统和价值观；订婚戒指，象征着一份还未巩固的承诺；友谊戒指，证明两个人之间长久的友谊；梦见白金戒指，象征着纯洁的爱情。

梦见戒指断了梦见戒指断了，代表着感情受挫。男人梦见戒指断，预示着感情生活上的不顺；女

人梦见戒指断，预示着夫妻不和，近期会有家庭争执；梦见金戒指断了，预示着家庭财产会产生纠纷。

梦见戒指坏了梦见戒指坏了，暗示着感情的破裂。结婚男女梦见梦见戒指坏，有可能会离婚；恋爱男女梦见戒指坏，暗示着两人会分离。 梦见戒指碎了梦见戒指碎，是吉祥之兆。商人梦见戒指碎，预示商业成功 。

梦见捡到戒指梦见捡到戒指，好运将至。男人梦见捡到戒指，预示着要发财；女孩梦见捡到戒指，预示着很快会遇到心目中的白马王子；失业人员梦见捡到戒指，说明机会就要来临。

孕妇梦见戒指，预示着很快会生下一个健康又活泼的儿子。
梦见买戒指，预示着灾难的降临。

女人梦见买戒指，表明你将有新的重要的友谊。

look like this dream wasn't that bad that i though ! hahhaa.....feeling release now....good sign !

PC FAIR

in the 1st day of pc fair in KLCC ,i met gary at there..i never tot will meet this fren in such crowded place.hahha..wat a fate we have huh! we talked and walked around in the fair ..we talked japanese when someone was trying to approach us , he talked a lot like i know but i still manage to catch up wat he is trying to say la...hahaha...and talk about women's driving attitude..(hey,dun write about me when u wanna write tat post,ok?haha)

I not belong to anyone but belong to everyone !

Blog ! Blog ! Blog ! Blog .......
Blogging ! Blogging ! Blogging ....

didn't blogging for such a long time .why am i not blogging?hehe...i was busy looking of what is the meaning of single life and how its go on...huh?! single life huh? although i had been single for almost 2 years yet i still really understand what is single life means at all.and finally i had the answers from my 'old' friends now...

well,first ! single life is free and without someone to control over you.next, you don't need to take any responsibility to anyone since you are single and alone.

next, financial free.there is no one that you need to pay for when you are having dinner,movie or anything.A-A for everyone.you can save your money for others occasion like travelling to oversea with freinds .

active in social.you can explore as many as freinds you can.when you are single, you will get to know many type of friends from anywhere.maybe you get to know a coolman like Obama...hahaha...80% of my japanese classmate are single.some are almost 40 years old yet still remain single but the seem very happy with their current life.nothing to worried about.

haiz..no time for bf now.no money ! no time ! what i want to do the most now is to play ! play ! play ! and spend my time with friends.actually what comes to my 1st prority? friends !

i want to become a better me .live life no regret. it's the time to play before i going to work field.
GOD will arrange the right person for me when its time come.
DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY.

goodbye my braces , welcome back little monster

little monster officially release from braces la...hahhaa...now i can do want i want already....hmm....little monster had been starving for 2 years and now wanna start to bite human being ....so watch out ,my beloved one (mokkies)...hahaha...

我很想哭，最近的我已近不是我了。我的压力真的大到不行了。我真的真的很想自己一个人翘家，订机票去一个没有人认识我的一个小岛在那里痛快地玩上几天。真的不想被人打扰，不想跟任何人说话。只是想在那里抒发我的压力，痛快地哭。 我已经对书厌倦了，也不想去了解它的方程式。读书不是我的专长了。我已经不会读了，很累了，想给自己一个大放假。

压力还真的来自家人的爱，梦想不够伟大还真的不把你的小梦想当一回事。身为大孙女的责任比小的还来得大。要身为他们的榜样，照顾他们，还要教导他们。在这个大家庭只有我这个大孙女很会读书，鉴定考试拿的A's比他们多很多。所以妈妈，阿姨还有舅舅们给我的期望也特别地多。妈说，作女儿的是要为爸妈完成他们的梦想，他们已经给你最好的了，你当然也要怎样的报答。我们所为你设定的都是最好的，不要你走那么多冤枉路。舅，你帮我读这个，然后读那个，然后给你做股东。这些我全部听起来都很好听。可是这些的一切都是我一个人在做，没人帮我。我已经习惯一个人坚强，从小到大都是一个人撑着大人们的梦想，我好怕让他们失望，而且从来也不让他们对我失望。千万个宠爱都集聚在我这，我怎么会没有压力。没有一个肩膀能让我哭，让我撒娇。自己独自承担眼泪。

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突然想起以前有个grandpa，他是老外，很疼我。每当想起他就会浑身颤抖地后悔着。因为当他病倒躺着的时候，我拒绝地见他最后一面。他说过他爱我多于自己的儿子。我一辈子都背负这个刺。我已经辜负了一个疼爱我的grandpa.

'grandpa,now i can use english to talk with you,but you not in this world.i have so much story to talk to you , but you already in GREAT HOLY FATHER'S arm.I'm so sorry that i didn't work enough hard to live up your expectation on me.sorry that i have to let you down again.i sure that i didn't make you pround not even one.if one day i will see you in heaven,i hope that i can hear 'baby,i still love you and happy to see you' from you and please don't abandon me.i miss you grandpa.
from ling ling

final 5 days

count down the final 5 days for my teeth braces..yeah !going to smile free without any braces ....to whom that won't see me for this few days ,u can see my last face with braces..hehe...

sardine

my cooking skill have some improvement d...hahaha....just now cooked sardine with ong's sambal(the recipi that pass down from 1 generation to another generation) , but of cause my skill can't compare with my grandmother who is so expert in spicy...actually all my aunt use thier dish to ikat their husband's stomach,so that they won't simply go out curi makan.....i also hope that i can learn up the skill before i get marriage ,so that they won't go out curi makan...haha...no bad right...haha...

ying~next time when u r home alone call me wo....i go to ur house cook for u ,ok?hehe....

BEH SONG

feeling 'beh song' today....'beh song' to all that happen in my surrounding today...not doing well in the economic test, traffic jam near my school, no foods for lunch, the Hotlink Top-Up system jam and then wait at there for 20 minutes, other car trying to kiss my car in the traffic jam....
walau~~~wat's going wrong today? why all those unfortunate things happen sekali gus on me de?

シかさんのうち

yesterday celebrated single party at 'ultraman's house(シか）...we had a great day in his house...but yesterday just 7 ppl join this party only,got sumin,vivien,sharon,nelson,kegan,sherina and me...
he design his house exactly like japanese house,is very relax since u enter from his house's door and don't feel like wanna go out again...really nice..i feel like wanna overnight in his house for a month if i can...hehe...
we chated a lot about musics ,opera and bands..he also showed us the DVD record how he conduct Kun chen's private girl school's band...he really strict when he facing his students and we feel very lucky that we r his friend cos he treat friends very generous and polite...
we also opened some topics about sex ,education,prospect and health topics...and learn a lot from their past experience...and now only i know that actually condom got difference into many sizes..big is AA.........and.............. forgotten what nelson-san said d.......hehe...how doctor want to check when u r suspected in cervic canser or breast canser...
sumin-san photogaphy had reached professional standard lo.....here we had some picture about our P-19 5th outing...

dianasor collections





祭＝matsuri

hawaii

women in the room

band teacher and me (this picture is so valueable)haha...

look at nelson's eyes

ULTRAMAN action !!

family picture

they said we look alike

ultraman and little monster

'king' ~'king'~'king'~

happy girls

look at the weirdo

big and comfortable living room

so 'bahagia' nia~hahha

wat is he trying to do there?

senior and me

wooo~~hahahah~~